Before she came onto the earth, she looked at what life could she have, one which would enhance the purpose of her soul.  She was a 6th dimension soul and they were in service to others on the planet.  Additionally, she would chart herself some growth.  She chose a solitary life with issues of love or the lack of it, conditional, unconditional or loss.  She knew that everything in her life was part of a divine plan.  She must remain giving, especially in the company of 1st and 2nd level souls.  Her experience told her, that on the first level, they care only for the self and have little or no regard for the feelings of others.  Possibly any others .  Anyway, she had met a few lst vibrations on her travels.  They wanted everything at any cost.  Self gratification, self indulgence, self deluded, egotistical, insular and difficult to change.  They were survivors, at a dire cost to others.  She didn't ponder too long on their negative characteristics, her job,  for her own self development was to help, inspire, to find good, to build bridges to heal.  However, from experience she knew they would offer nothing back, to expect it would cause unnecessary pain.  It needed no analysis, they were simply not capable at this stage.

5th and 6th dimension souls were a little too sensitive for the earth plane which made them a touch rocky, vulnerable. Some 5's found themselves in victim roles.  She pondered on her shadow self and wondered how she might be less effected by those of an uncaring nature.  She looked and there was quite a lot of light bringers that fell foul of the lst level soul.  Loosing their focus after the encounters that hurt or wounded their emotional body.

2nd levels at least extended their warmth to family, but their love was conditional and there purpose to build a world in which everyone around them conformed to their needs.  Heavy doses of emotional blackmail and judgement and they were very draining to their close family, insistent on their needs being met.

Each souls job was to ascend in vibration.  To make themselves better, to find the god light within.  Each soul having a particular bar code showing their vibration or level or ascension.  It could not be hidden. It was displayed in the auric field.   3rd, 4th and 6th were on the planet to ascend also but their job was to help each other.  Everything in the life of that soul charted.

She looked at those around her.  She knew if certain things upset her, then those were the issues she would have to deal with on the highest vibration in order to develop.  Not the easy ones but the more difficult.  The highs and lows were all part of the growth and none could be avoided, they were necessary.

Her destination was 7th vibration but she found herself tested in the extreme.  She had to deal with needy souls outside her immediate family or circle, some of those needy,  others indifferent or difficult.   For 7 she would need to be all love and all give,  even in the face of evil, for the body was merely a vessel and the soul everlasting. 

To show any weakness would effect and lessen the vibration and at this moment she was floundering.  What some see as Spirituality others saw as weakness, in a world where physical strength and mental agility, agenda and manipulative behaviour prevail.  Much is obtained by force or cunning, integrity and honour were not apparent where the illusion of  material gain and status are paramount.

Fear instead of oneness was apparent amongst the mixed vibration of souls.

As she looked around her she knew she would fail some of these challenges.  She too was vulnerable and all she had was her desire to be more like her divine mistress.  To please, to give, to touch others with inspiration and give them back their self worth.  She needed some light because those she helped took some of it and there was no return, she had become as a plant, wilting without the sun.  There may need to be a death and re-birth in order to escape this repetition.

She looked longingly for the divine voice of guidance.  She prayed to her parent for help.  I am your humble servant,  goddess give me the light for I am depleted.  Stand with me and make me strong.  She asked to be inspired as she navigated  the path.  The goddess answered "my child, you charted this and you are able, you are a light of mine.  A light of divine.   As I breath on you, you are me and I you.  See only the light in everything, bless it all and it is only a moment in time.  You are never forsaken but your light needs, now,  to shine brighter in the darkness. 

Be still.

The little 6th soul answered, " I thought I could manage with those issues of ingratitude and resentment, treachery and deceit, loss and those that don't care or respect either themselves or me,  but perhaps I can't."   She said "Goddess I am tired of giving and loving and seeing nothing but harshness, greed and ego.  Perhaps I cannot do more or better, perhaps I am not you."

The Goddess responded " you may not see what you do, you may not feel it is noticed anywhere you walk, but you are wrong.  You are blind and you are focussed on the wrong things.  Let me heal you in order that you may continue what you do because I know your worth, I know your value, I know your love, and that is all you need,

 And you know and are sure of  mine."

The little 6th soul cried.

 so it is with love I serve you Goddess, whatever you ask of me, I am yours.

Always aware!  She checked herself.  Her thoughts, actions, associations..... Never sure if this demon had moved through, and around  her, or tainted another association.  Would those around her be clever enough to thwart their demon invader.   Would they understand the smallest weakness, a fear that might invite this parasitic virus in and then all their good would be lost.  Their pathway blocked.

She looked at it.  It was smiling straight at her.  Seemingly sweet, unassuming, but she trusted her senses and lying beneath the surface was a master of trickery and manipulation. 

She examined her body, her mind and her words over and over.  Had she succumbed?  She felt honest and clean but she needed continually check.  This was not a foe who would give up.  It was relentless and she felt saddened by those who had been consumed by this devious smiling predator.  Their insecurities played upon and perceptions distorted, alone with their ego and pride and not even aware that they had been violated in this creepy unfair way. 

Unfair, but  they justified their own lowly actions with blame, judgement and self-righteousness.  They were without honour or direction and deluded.  Shamefully, it was so easy for the demon.  Moving in and, as she looked at him she could see there was a smugness and an assured success about his victory. 

She reminded herself that light must prevail and goodness will always shine a light. She needed to do that.  Her experiences were somewhat different as the demons worked silently to thwart even the most ardent students of spiritual enlightenment.  Moving in swiftly to take down a united mind.  This demon was the cause of mistrust, resentment, jealousy, agenda and self absorbed individuals, who were then able to disrupt. 

Confusingly, even the nice fell foul of the invader.

Every situation, every day of her life she must fend and fight against this invisible foe.  She could only check her own actions and ensure that she never weakened or succumbed to negative behaviour in any way. For she would have surely been the victim but, she was too determined for that.  She kept her thoughts pure.   As for the others, some of them self appointed spiritual warriors who would fall at the first fence.  Others would be less obvious but eventually the truth would out.  It always did. 

She comforted herself that her senses were good and It was only herself she was responsible for.  If she remained with a high vibration, she remained safe. She would try to teach to guide.  Her disciples would learn a code of conduct to keep them safe.

 What of those who would be the light bringers?  Who sent the test?. Was this growth or downfall? 

With the right mind we had the key to utopia.  The journey was not easy with it's subtle and devious obstructers.  We were up against an invisible foe.  One who would assess and calculate an obvious weakness in a moment and act upon it immediately to bring us down.  No person was completely safe.  Unless they checked their actions every moment.  It was a must.  Essential to the survival of the utopian children.  Whose promise was and everlasting and eternal existence of perfect harmonious bliss.  To return to the love of the creator.

They didn't know they had to be pure to enter.  Their very vibration, thought, deed and action would open the door.

And of the others????  Life after life after life, some in damnation,  until they cracked the code. Until ascension.

Speak with me in this secret hour, in this secret place, for I have wandered and wondered about you.  I have tried to find you in all these years and you elude and evade and test me.  Why?  speak with me now and let me feel your presence, your guidance.  Make known to me your mystery, for I am yours and I seek knowledge until I am dust again, until I return from my journey.  Tell me then of your wisdom of your love, where have you been.

I am here.  I have always been here.  My child is blind and does not see.  Open to me and feel my presence.  I have not abandoned you. I am everywhere.  I am all that is.  Your journey is your choice.  Your journey is enlightenment and growth.  I have always loved you, you can do no wrong.  You may choose to be the brightest flame, it is all choice.  I am your parent and you and I are one.  It is you that keeps yourself separate from me. It is a matter of choices.  I have watched as my children keep themselves separate not just from me but from each other.  Once again it is choice.  You can choose to love and be one. There must be choice.

It is not that simple.  Why do you make it so simple when it is not.  If I loved all the world would it change.  Would it alter.  Tell me loving parent, what of all my brothers and sisters, will it change them too? 

It is only the love and trust of all, which will enable your ascension.  Enable the ascension and transformation of the self.  Then you walk with the gods my children.  Your thoughts and fears, Your  ego and greed will keep you all firmly anchored in purgatory.  Self made  purgatory.  Fear fed by failure, ego, and without regard for each other you will all stay anchored.  If you choose to enter my domain, my house, then in my likeness you must be and there is no room for anything but love.  Then truly your heart and mine are one.  There is only love.

And what of my path, my chart?

In my house many vibrations, many planes of existence.  In your life and experiences, you have incarnated in the right body for growth. The right place and time to ascend.  You are gently guided and the everyday experiences are mere illusions for you to deal with until you return to me. How you deal with them is your choice.  If you have achieved your growth, as you intended and when you return to your soul cluster, we will look at your vibration and automatically you will be in the right house.  The right plane, given your successes and failures.

You may now have specific tasks presented to you.  It is important that you always act godly for you are of but one source. Divine.  If you falter, there will be another life, another path, another choice. 

My child act, speak , think with god housed in the temple of your soul.  You will then ascend.  There is god within you.  You need no fancy building.  You need be at one with me in word, deed and thought.   It is that Simple and your choice.

The inspired words : T. R. HUNT

The child travelled alone.  Each journey different, each journey just as dangerous as the last.  She looked around for those who might help her, knowing that demons smiled and had many guises.  This time her journey was in a small boat and the water an ocean.  No land in sight, and although she had a mission the divine master had not given her the destination or outcome.  The small child name was Luciana and she had resolve, even without complete knowledge.  She had a set of principals one of which was 'trust in yourself and god'. 

It was a difficult task, never knowing which way and following, only, signs and symbols.  A journey of mystery and sometimes sadness.  There were moments of true elation and inspiration.  She had learned that Those who had come to help her had proved weak and been silently consumed  by the demon.  They would start out with every good intention but, experience told her that as they were possessed they would display the demon traits. 

Most completely unaware of their parasite and his influence.

The child was told to watch, listen and feel.  To understand her apprehensions and see them as signs.  She had long been alone and although, still somewhat naive, she learned.  To her dismay, not all helpers where seekers.  Some were sent to cause disruption and disharmony and put her off the intended task. Her sadness was because she had a love of people even  of those who had been her accusers, her predators and her persecutors.  Her sadness was in realisation and resignation  to this situation, for which she had no solution. 

Love does not necessarily negate the demons smear! and that gave her a sense of foreboding.  The climb to success was steep and casualties would amass in her wake. She realised the ignorance was not bliss.  These individuals did not know how to navigate.  Could not possibly know how clever their secret stalker would be.  She knew only too well.  Luciana checked herself again and again to be sure.  Yes, she was clear.  Not even a sign of demon impregnation anywhere, her actions were cool.

She set out once again on her quest, ever mindful of who came to the boat. 

Luciana remembered a time when she had let a beautiful child into the boat.  With the smile of an angel she believed he would have, in common, her aim.  To find the doorway to the otherworld and bring back the knowledge and the key.  To save the planet from the secret demons, who silently consumed and fed from their hosts. Who kept they hosts in fear, anger and even war with each other.  Hers was a quest for the Key of the Kingdom and a road Home to God.  Surely, he would understand personal gain could not feature in this duty.  A duty to all the lost souls inhabiting the Earth.

  She pulled him into the boat and although he initially helped her, he didn't understand the quest. He didn't understand the danger.  The demons would come in with the breeze.  They would explore a personality and find the weakness, be it ego, envy, jealousy, treachery, deceit and many more, they would magnify it, feed from it and watch as it destroyed love, friendships and harmony.  They were so clever, invading a personality with temptation, magnifying negative thoughts, increasing paranoia.   Demons always gloated at success and she often heard their mocking laughter.  It was all too easy, predatory and silent, there would be no fight. The demons' would change a person, latching into their aura and controlling their thoughts.

Silently, those afflicted would be affected until they realised guilt and fought.  There were those who never knew, completely unaware of their feeding monster. The signs were there, suspicion, deceit, fear.

She knew when the boat filled with water that they would surely sink.  Her new found friend and angel had succumbed.  He was different, she could see the signs,  jealous.  His words guarded.  His ego wounded and he was about to try and sink the boat.  She reasoned with the boy, but no, he saw her as the enemy.  His vision distorted by the demon and  she knew he would have to be cast adrift, but if she loved him unconditionally, blindly, allowing him to do his will.......she  knew she would be vulnerable. Therefore, love or no, It was decided. Coldly, she sliced the cords and in a moment he was gone.  That would not be the last attempt and destroying this mission, there would, undoubtedly be other attempts.

Her mind clicked back to the present and her masters call.  She had learned much and her strength and faith were solid.  Her master had said "concern yourself only with your destination, let others be responsible for theirs.  Let my laws prevail"

Her master was of the otherworld and her quest was for secret knowledge of long ago, buried. The gift was so great it would change the world.

There were many others out there who would help her, they too understood the task.  She knew when the timing was right they would come.  The vastness of the chaos would not prevent that.  They too would be grateful of the mission and intended destination.

Luciana was tireless and always motivated.  There would be times when she felt weary, but she had been given a set of invisible helpers who would make right, protect and shield her.  Nothing would prevent the unveiling of her masters words.  This had been her mission through many lifetimes and this one no different, only in it's timing.  Divine timing.

She knew there had been many shining children  before her and if she did not succeed there would be many more.  These children born of the creator and cast of a vibration different to man.

Luciana was a good warrior and although she looked humble and childlike, her vision was good.  Otherworldly vision, which enabled her to see demon clouds and astral attack.  She was also accompanied by a sorceress, who stopped at nothing to protect her.

Luciana had been unaware of the amount of silent shields she had until 0ne night, when the crows cane to her.  she was told "Any action against you will be thwarted"  Only then did she realise the importance of her instructions.  She asked the crow, 'why can you not tell me the task completely? ' She was told that secrecy was a must. 

In other lives she had been betrayed, tortured.

In this life too, she had experience terrible treachery,

What she didn't know she couldn't reveal. Not all were friends.

She would be given a team of disciples who would display characteristics of Loyalty, honour and vision.  These disciples would have a common aim, not their own but their masters

To open the door to the unknown and empower the children.  They were assured protection and the timing was right.  In the past darker forces had been underestimated.  They had managed to seek out positions of power and credibility.  Where we expected compassion there was destruction and wickedness.  These credible individuals, with their positions of power, hid behind religious causes and Political gain.  They were charismatic and plausible, smiling assassins.

Luciana concerned herself for a moment, would she recognise the disciples?  She quickly  said "Shall I know them?  Will they be strong? I need strength not weakness.

The Master advised her;  They will be all and more.  There will always be danger, but you are to secure a position on land, as a fortress of light and love............ and they will come.

They shall be called the disciples of enlightenment and they will be my warriors.

Luciana asked how she might lead them.  Her master replied, "by example."

The child radiated her masters hue and  she shone.

First, the waters must be negotiated until the right place is found and safety assured.  Luciana could see darkness falling and the light of the moon.  The sky was particularly cloudy and turbulent, but to her, it seemed safe enough.  She looked out into the night, there was much activity.  And the breeze!!!  She would be tested and the demons would endeavour to make her weak.  So she braced herself and called in the light of the mother moon.  The child allowed herself to be cloaked in gold and soon she slept, but never deeply.

At the head of the small boat a dark figure, invoked and cloaked in black ensured their safe passage.  Once at the muddy bank, the figure beckoned her to disembark.  Luciana felt her long skirt wet around her ankles.  She slipped many times as she made her way through the night in search of a safe place.  She was always aware of the pursuit and determination of the watchers.

It was difficult to run or make haste with this cumbersome clothing but she moved with speed and alertness, her eyes everywhere.  A lone wolf howled and for a moment she stopped.  Opening her mind she called the animal towards her and he came.  Her thoughts of connection and protection transferred.  The wolf ran ahead,  he would be her scout and guide in the darkness.  It was an unease of what was behind her which made her look back on several occasions.

Luciana's mind clicked back to the past again, her losses.  Those consumed.  The torment of not being able to help those who had demons within.  She had looked into the aura's of individuals and remained silent because what she knew would make them afraid and fear fed the demon.  Once, she stood silent piercing the demon with light and watched it recoil and return.  She had seen it drain the very life source from it's host.  A host so close to the demonic whisper, in whom he trusted, which made removal of it impossible for that moment.  Impossible until she was in possession of the Key.  She knew it was an encoded key. 

There was now a rustling behind her and although, tired the adrenalin kept her moving.  She moved quickly around the castle wall in search of a door.  Feeling the wall with her bare hands and with a degree of panic.  Now there was no light at all so her pursuers may be disadvantaged .  The mist loomed towards her but she managed to move through the door swiftly.  It shut with a heavy thud and she pulled the heavy bar across to secure it. Futile though it was.

Once inside, the place was vast with a huge central staircase ornate and gothic.  Torches held on walls were alight and made navigation easy.  she came to a room and when inside, sat in a chair to rest. The chair was high backed and studded and all in the room was still.  There was a large fireplace, with a log fire but, the child could see no one in the building at all.  The windows were arched in shape,  and coloured stained glass with religious figures set upon them. She looked down at her wet clothes and tried to take some warmth from the fire.  A large fire, the flames almost reaching out to her.  She was distracted only for a moment when the sound of footsteps approaching alerted her and for Luciana that meant time to move on...

In a breath she would transform and pass through the stained glass window.  Outside, she would fall into the moat and hold her breath and her life until they were gone.  She held her breath until she might burst.  Under the water in this place, cold, dark dirty and the bones of those who had gone before clouding the water. Those of the Templar who had shared her knowledge and her urgency to escape.  For most escape had been futile and their souls could not rest.  Portrayed as evil by their accusers, those accusers of credibility who where servants of the master demon.  Puppets to his will. Hiding behind their good reputations and causes or behind their power.

Luciana, would emerge in a shaft of light onto the bank, when it was time....

Ever the phoenix, never defeated, always complete and onward.  Onward because this was the task, and a belief in success, always!!!  This time she told herself, she would never stop and nothing would be strong enough to stop her and that is why she was chosen.

Those who looked at her, thought they knew her.  Knew her weaknesses but, they had no idea of the child's resolve, determination and relentless faith. She was able to adapt, and once she had identified the foe, she would study it and use whatever means became available to her.    She was a servant of god and when instructed, she would persevere and endure until success was assured in this and any other lifetime.

Gods warriors cannot be stopped they are immortal....born again and programmed with a destiny!!

to be continued/...

By thirteen moons her power she drew. 

Thirteen moons a woman anew. 

Healing,  love,  magick and lore. 

Now to command the seasons galore. 

Time had forgotten the key to the door. 

Blind and in darkness they fumbled and fell. 

living an existence equal to hell

It was not wealth, ego or status that mattered. 

Illusions and dreams could easily be shattered. 

But once in possession of the knowledge she'd found. 

The rest was so easy abundance abound. 

So why was the knowledge withheld from us all and only some responded the call. 

With knowledge came empowerment and strength of the Gods. 

Darkness would take it if not guarded by light. 

So she would remain silent and still as the night.

A time would come when their eyes would see

Ascending the ladder easily

toni   

Once, long ago, there was a time when people were magick.  They were entrusted with God's knowledge and power beyond belief.  There was no need for words, their minds communicated.  They had the key to God and each man knew how to unlock the door. So powerful were these children of God, they knew so much that they were eternal, timeless, beautiful. 

Darker forces needed to stop the children and had to devise a way to discredit or extinguish their light.  That would be difficult since the children were of the highest vibration.  They were the helpers, healers and givers on the land.  Selfless in their acts of kindness and true of heart.

The dark ones got in close and took on Positions of Credibility. They cloaked their darkness and studied the children of light until they could find a weakness.  They studied and studied.  The light one's knew there was treachery afoot and decided to make their knowledge a secret and to entrust special Knight's to keep the key and guard it.  The light children then took their place with the other's, keeping their knowledge secret because it would mean their persecution and physical death.

The dark one's took the old beliefs and old god and made him a demon which, created confusion and fear.  They said theirs was the only way and anyone who didn't agree must be a danger to all and be dealt with. Terror spread throughout the land, as those with knowledge were accused of acts against the people and put to death.  The dark ones smiled as they spread the fear and sat back, the people did the rest.  The knowledge became a secret and the secret died.  A new way was set and all the magick was gone.  None shone and the people lost their way and their light.  Every time one person shone, he was stopped and it was easy because the dark ones knew how to create distrust and fear. 

Lovely, innocent people changed because of fear.  Fear was the cause of judgement, persecution or banishment of any who were different, or any who would not conform to the new way.  Most all were silenced and buried what they knew.   All the light children where snuffed out and the source of light dried up.

The new way said there must be no communication to god.  The new way said Spirituality and angels were not experiences for the people.  The people must not seek out or hear the voices of spirit. They must not be guided by Spirit.  The children must be denied the knowledge and the key. 

Soon the children lived in a world of starvation, where physical power was abused and persecution and injustice prevailed. One belief fought another and the ways of oneness, healing, light, connection at source and the key was lost.

But those who had died in the persecution were eternal souls and were born again into a new time.  A time when the starving darkness would no longer be tolerated and a restoration of the old ways was essential to the survival of the planet. 

Some of those reincarnated light ones are working now.  Some are still fearful of persecution, because everyone has fear inbred and although well meaning, have no knowledge of any other way.  Some of the light workers have experienced disruption, from the dark, Fear from the ignorant and yet others were discredited and dismissed as delusional, but still they work on. 

The knowledge entrusted to the Knights of the land would be uncovered and the children would once again have the Key to God's Kingdom.  This was the dream, but the story is not finished and neither are the dark ones!!!

but now the Templar are back!

The moral is Trust God and yourself until the truth is known.

You shall have the Key.

Lots of individuals claim to be in pursuit of their spirituality, attending various groups and centres. What if you never went to any! Would it make you less spiritual??

When I was a young woman it was considered correct to go to church. It was thought, by some, you were cleansed in some way by the process.  I noticed, when working with the police, criminally active individuals who were in regular attendance were considered by some, the pillars of the community.  Perhaps they thought themselves absolved from their deeds as a result.  This is not unique to any particular church or group, since anyone can be guilty of very un-spiritual behaviour.

Spiritual behaviour does not include judgement, condemnation, aggression or persecution and yet quite balanced, pleasant individuals are often guilty of it and possibly oblivious.. 

A truly spiritual warrior would try to help everyone and would weave a web, in life,  of unconditional love. Thus, Incorporating unselfish acts of giving and kindness. Encompassing compassion and understanding everywhere.

Ego and pride are detrimental to healing.  Somebody once said to me "sometimes we have to step outside our comfort zone to make something better.  Humility is the answer"  Pride can prevent us doing what is necessary to heal a difficulty.

Suppose you have a situation where you and another person don't talk.  You could carry on that way it would be easy.  What if they thought they were right and you were wrong.  What if they even spoke ill of you.  If you react to this in a negative way then for that moment you are not being spiritual.  What if you did your best to heal it.  Said kind words, highlighting the persons good points, making peace.  That would be spiritual.  Even if the person remains unchanged, what is important is that you did everything you could to make it better. 

So many people react instead of trying to heal it.  When we talk of healing most people think of it in the physical sense.  Healing means the mind, the spirit, the emotions too. 

Sometime ago two people parted under difficult circumstances.  The one girl said to me "I tried my hardest to heal the rift but she wouldn't"  I said if you have done everything you can to make it better, that is enough. You have been spiritual.

Spiritual people think about the feelings of others and adapt themselves to be empathetic.  Most will try to do good and helpful things within the community. A spiritual person will not judge or condemn but listen and learn.  They have no need of ego since humility creates harmony.  They have no fear because fear is born of ignorance.  Judgement is not in their mindset, unconditional love is.  A spiritual person would have a pure heart, no agenda.  Their smile would be genuine and their intentions honourable, trustworthy, and kind.  The aforesaid being the case whom so ever they met in life.

Spirituality is about the web you weave in life.  How you touch others, your intentions and actions.  It is never the judgement or discrimination of any belief or culture, nor is it hostility, because another may come from a different perspective.

To be spiritual is to make other's feel better not worse, or at least to endeavour to achieve that goal. To enable those around you to feel they can be themselves and speak out without the fear of not fitting within a belief, culture or to a standard. .

This is where Religion differs from Spirituality.  To be spiritual can be liberating and empowering.  Often, Religion means fitting within the organisation or following the practices of that particular belief system.  I believe the two are totally different. 

Spirituality can be offered, experienced and pursued by all cultures, backgrounds, classes, beliefs and religions.  It is all encompassing and individuals experience it independently and uniquely.  It is about your actions, love, kindness.  It is more than just a belief, it is acting within the breath of our creator.  Transcending everything normal and ascending into the light.

So, today, tomorrow and into the future think about how you might heal everything; situations, relationships, yourself.  Past hurts, grudges,  wrong judgements and even if the person doesn't change or even respond,  You will have changed! and this is your healing!  Your Spirituality! Your light and you will find that WITHIN!

TONI

Before you were born, you looked at what life, culture and circumstances would benefit your learning as a soul, and then you selected the parents who by their nature could assist this.  Before you all criticise this statement  let me give you an example.  I gave a reading to a woman who was unhappy in her life here.  Since she had been a little girl she had felt unloved.  In her adult life her long term partner had treated her rather badly.  Her impression of her life with him was that she loved him but didn't believe it was reciprocated.  She had come to an all low point of her life.  She had difficulty with her self esteem.  Her heart was big and she forgave but was saddened at her treatment by those who should care but didn't..  As a soul She chose to experience this. ......Why??????  When she was on the other side she was of the highest vibration, close in company to the God head.  One of the shining ones, who don't have to incarnate unless they choose.  Her task was to maintain that all love vibration, giving unconditional love but not expecting nor receiving it back.  Her task was to see if she could maintain her  essence of light, even though the light would not be reflected back.

Each soul has different tasks, I don't believe in a judgemental God and this is not your penance.  Your lack and difficulties will be part of a charted process.  If  you have experienced a person in your life who is volatile, it will have assisted in your perception, and ability to defuse situations, since you would need to do that for survival in this instance. Each charted difficulty will give you a quality or ability.  Children who were not looked after properly gained the survival instinct.  Growing up quickly, becoming self sufficient.  Or at least that should be what happens. So within each difficulty something is learned or gained.

When we pass to the next life we go over into a plane of existence and there are many planes.  I call it soul clusters.  If we got things wrong and messed up in our lives it does not mean we must be punished, but we will exist on the appropriate plane. (As above  so below)  I call it Karma and you have a say in how you might work it out and learn to be All Light.  If you choose to work towards the highest plane then you would be given  the opportunity, in this life and the next, to reach that destination.

Each time we incarnate we are monitored through our existence and if,  our spirit guides can help us they do.  Sometimes they try to direct you and may project inspiration in thought forms to you.  Or they may direct you to meet another soul who can help you here.  No meeting is by chance and every person you have shared an experience with, good or bad,  is learning in some way on your path. If you have had a difficult experience then look at what you have chosen as an issue  and what you might be here to learn.  That way you ensure  you don't get the same issues in another life.  Some souls come in and are dealing with the same stuff and have been over a few lifetimes.

One girl I met had been male in another life and had chosen to work with injustice and judgement. It became repetitive, she always seemed to experience unfair treatment and blame.  She had been dealing with this over several lifetimes.  The important thing to remember here is .................You have to maintain your light whatever happens. 

To succeed we need to return home in spite of our difficulties being true divinity.  Non judgemental, all loving.  We must not carry hurt, envy, jealousy, ego,  A truly ascended being has humility, kindness, perception, all love and can project that whatever the circumstances.

That can only be tested through difficulty and the more difficulty the greater the possibilities of growth. Some of us try to avoid these experiences but difficulty  ought to be embraced.  A lot can be learned. 

When we return home we will be asked why we could not maintain the light within and we are accountable for that. It is not relevant what anyone else did, since the actions of others  are no justification for negative reaction.

Your purpose is to be light and love!

Positive Expectations.

My resolution for every year has to be Positive Expectations. 

What if life were an illusion, where our expectations were played or reflected back to us.  What if everything you expected happened??  Very quickly you would have to change your mode of thought because you may chart yourself disaster.   What If you believed people would let you down and because you believed it THEY DID! What if you were immersed in the illusion of your own perception.

 My past experience as a Police woman has given me a degree of cynicism.  My expectations of others was minimal, that way they couldn't disappoint. I actually think that my limited expectations of others manifested.   My actions may also have pushed people away, thus compounding my belief.

Whatever happens to us in our lives will colour our vision and possibly, may even distort it.

Sometimes, other's may colour your vision with their experiences and effect the way you think or feel.  I have heard people reflect on their situations with comments like  "I can't"  "I am so unlucky" "Good things happen to other's"   You may have been brought up  and fed those views and have to change them.

Whatever is happening in your life may actually be your belief, your interpretation and not the intention of others.

 Now I believe that what you expect is drawn to you.  I have a great life because I expect it.  I  have changed the way I feel about people and my expectations of them.  I believe that everyone is capable of greatness. 

If someone comes to me with tales of woe, I will respond with something positive or deflective.

A woman once reflected back to me something I said.  Her perception of it was completely different to mine.  I thought about that for a while wondering how she could of misunderstood.  Of course, if you are positive within, then everything on the outside is positive too including the words, deeds and actions of others.  Likewise if you are feeling negative then what other's do will seem to have negative intent.

I believe we live an illusion of our own expectations

It is our choice the way we feel.  We can do nothing to change anyone else, but we can choose how we feel about it all.

I will never be negative in my expectations of people.

I believe there is divinity in everyone.

The Devil's breath

I believe we are all responsible for our own actions and cannot blame a Devil.  I don't believe in the Christian concept of a Devil although I do believe there is evil, on this side and on the other.  When we work, play and live we are open to temptations of all kinds.  The more spiritual a person feels they are the more tested by such temptation they might be.  We could be angels one moment and demons the next.  Just doing a few kind deeds does not absolve us from the negative ones.  Words themselves can be very destructive and powerful.  Words can create wars, fear and hatred.  All of which are evil in action.  At any time a person speaks ill of another, he is not acting within the light of God. 

Some people are so used to negative gossip and destructive actions that they think it is normal, but look at their lives.  Chaos will reign as the universe reflects it back.

When I worked as a police woman I noticed cluster communities.  Let me explain that people who think and act the same usually band together.  The old saying "You are who you sit with"  I noticed that violent individuals would select friends who were also violent and they would either be the perpetrators or the victims of violent actions as they lived their lives.  Eventually it went full circle.  It was very unfortunate that sometimes they touched the lives of others outside their circle, who were not the same.

I have walked a spiritual path but even in these circles evil will dwell and consume those who are tempted.  I have noticed at some gatherings, one person will speak badly and demonise another,  or they may cast aspersions on the character's of others. All done over a cup of tea and devilishly destructive.  I call this the Devil's breath because it's negative, incites hatred, demolishes those to whom it is directed and is a nasty cowardly way of making oneself more important by negating the other person or causing them harm. They don't realise that it causes them harm also.

In religions since time immemorial this has been the reason for wars.  Sad though it is, it is born out of fear and ignorance.

So the next time you hear someone demonising or demolishing another because of their beliefs or otherwise, consider whether you are being tempted by the devils breath.  These people load the guns for you to fire.  They incite hatred and they come in all forms.  They can be really close but be channelling pure evil.  Listen to their words and ask yourself  "Are they necessary?  Are they True?  Are they healing?"  and never pass the gossip on. 

In the war they used to say that careless talk cost lives.  We believed this in the Police also, since we were dealing with those that acted on what they were told and violence ensued.

When dealing with any individual listen carefully to what they say, since their perception of other people will give you a good idea of how they are.  If  a person is always negative about others then it is likely they are the same about you too.  If their words or deeds are destructive think about how you might minimise their damage.  Perhaps it might be fitting not to sit with them at all since the company you keep says a lot about you.

Keep your words and deeds always in the light and what you don't know to be true is hearsay!!!  Don't let them load your guns!!!

Angel Experiences

 Quite Some time ago I had a vision of my angel in a meditation.  He didn't look how you might expect.  No big wings or fancy dress.  In fact, he was dressed in a pair of washed out jeans and a very casual shirt.  I knew he was an angel and my angel.  They say that Angels appear to us in a form we can accept.  So hence the jeans and shirt and strikingly handsome.

I remember running a workshop where a woman connected to her birth Angel. She said that the angel first appeared as a child and as he walked towards her grew into a young adult.  I asked her why she thought the angel might have done that and she said  "He must have known I would be worried if he just approached me as he was because I just don't trust men. I'm afraid of them. She had felt comforted that her angel had introduced himself in this sensitive way.

My Angel told me his name was Samael.  I had such a clear vision of him that I drew a picture in pastel and hung it on my wall.  I felt unable to capture the true beauty and essence of Samael in the picture, but it went on the wall and I loved to look at him.  At this time I couldn't really find out much more about Samuel.  I looked up Angels and who's who, but then just resigned myself to his lovely presence without further explanation.

About a year or so later, I had been asked to run an Angel Meditation Workshop for a Local Adult Education Authority and I was designing and researching some of the material we were going to cover on the day.  I sat at my computer and looked at birth Angels.  I went into the perennial calendar to find out my day of birth because we were going to do an exercise where we looked for the names of our birth Angels.  (Those allocated at our time of birth).

Once I had found my birthday I made up a chart for the class and I was quite engrossed in my work.  Then a message came to me 'find your Angel'.  I have numerous books on all manner of subjects, particularly if I am looking at a Lesson Plan for a class.  I always want to make it interesting and look at what other people say about the subject too.  Anyway, I pick up one of these books to make the chart of the different angels for each day of the week.  I start typing and stopped at my birth day and there he was.....

'Samael'

There he was and I hadn't even thought about him and yet he was thinking about me!!! communicating with me.

He now often appears for me and I always trust the accurate content of communications given in meditations.

If you are practical and logical you may argue it, but there it was and no debate, absolute proof.

I know he's watching me

x

Abundance

What goes around comes around. 

It is my belief that we weave a web in life.  All of our deeds and thoughts are sent out into the universe and our very existence is affected by all that we do.  My Grandmother would say "Treat other's as you wish to be treated" and I have used that all through my life.  I cherish such things as kindness, generosity and love.  It is easy to help those who are close but how many of us put ourselves out to help those who aren't.

I have always tried to be generous in my life and indeed, the Spiritual Development group was first set up, with nothing more in mind, than to help the local community and keep open the village hall. I am fortunate enough to know It has transformed peoples lives.  During that time I have seen people come and go.  Some, perhaps might not have got the full message but most go on to do other good things as a result. 

Indeed, in my own way, I can say that I  have had some impact on most all the lives I have touched.  I would endeavour to help, comfort, assist and guide any individual.  When I lost my mother I looked for help and guidance, since she was the backbone of our family.  As a result of my experiences then, I now work with individuals to help them in their grief.

I can afford now to spend time on more charitable projects and my experience is that the universe provides for us.  The more generous and giving you are the more you are looked after. 

When I give, I do that because I want to.  There are no conditions or feelings of resentment, because that would not be giving generously. If you give with any feelings of resentment then you negate all you have done.  You may never get anything back from those you help, and it is not fitting to expect it.  Some may not even be capable of gratitude or recognition of the role you may have played in their lives.  However, my findings are that the Universe and power of God within it never misses nor ignores those good deeds and somehow one is always enchanted by the way in which abundance is returned.

I would give without expectation

Give with Love

And allow the Power of the Universe to look after  you.

Why do we have to encounter difficult situations

Difficulties are our growth, our tests.  It would be easy to remain spiritual if we were never tested.  These situations help us even more than we realise. There would be no point in shining a bright light in a place of illumination.  There must be darkness.  It is my belief that we are here to learn.  I believe that we choose our parents, and to some extent our destiny and that we come onto the planet without memory of what we have charted for ourselves.  For example, some of us will have had difficult parents or peers, may have had to deal with anger and hostility, perhaps even neglect.  Whatever it is, your particular soul has chosen to experience, may re-occur in your life path.  Some of us will be dealing with issues or self worth, love, jealousy, loneliness, etc.  The task would be to see if you could maintain spiritual balance, love and harmony throughout all of life's difficulties. 

Think!! We are often guided or inspired by a real negative experience.  Imagine you have to live with a controlling aggressive parent.  What would be your lessons and your gain from this.  You might learn to study mood.  You might also learn quickly how to please and appease, defuse situations, become the mediator.  You may also formulate an opposite character for yourself, such as placid and agreeable.  You will have learned much from this negative situation.  The problem can be that instead of focussing on what we have achieved from it, usually individuals feel saddened and hold onto the memory, perhaps even trying to analyse why they have had to endure such treatment.  That is the baggage we need to drop!!! 

Every different soul on this planet has a life chart to work with if they want to achieve ascension on the other side.  What is ascension??  We achieve this if we are able to act in a balanced, loving and harmonious way. If we are always able to touch others with kindness.  Acting  Angelic.  I ran an angel workshop recently and asked my students how they would expect angels to act.  The usual comments came up 'loving', 'kind', 'compassionate', 'caring', 'non judgemental' etc I asked the students how they might be expected to act if they wanted angels to dwell near of with them.  Of course the response was  'THE SAME'  Then I said but what if a someone trashed your fence or dumped their rubbish on your drive, spoke ill of you, or maybe just acted in anger???  Are you allowed a day off???  Or must you be spiritual all the time???  The answer is obvious.

With all of this in mind you could see why even spiritual people sometimes make mistakes.  There are some pointers to success.  If you are feeling any of the lower negative emotions such as anger, jealousy, envy, etc and have a rather large ego, where competitive becomes cut-throat.  Obviously that's not the Sharman's way.  Any person at any time, however spiritual they feel they are, may channel these emotions and drop their vibration if not checked back. 

It is important to love unconditionally, to see mistakes as learning, to rectify and introspect as often as possible.  To drop baggage and see the positive aspects of all situations, even if they appear frustrating at the time.  All of your life's experiences have made you the person you are today.  Look at yourself and find five positive things you can do and focus on them.  Make all your focus positive.  My Grandmother used to say if you can't find anything good to say then say nothing at all.  I will admit some people make that difficult, but I usually can find something they have helped me achieve. 

I worked out recently that when, in the past anyone has said "You can't do that" or tried to obstruct me in anyway, I usually then, become very determined and focussed.  So for me, my dark angels have been a great blessing.  I probably would have stayed at home in the cosy comfort of my beautiful home and done nothing at all but for those little dark critters that have inspired me.  I love them the best because they have helped me achieve, and shown me how I don't want to act.  So the next time you come across a person who you don't like, think how they might teach you something good.  Even if it is how not to be.

So keep smiling life is beautiful and being Positive is absolute bliss

brilliant bliss even!!!!

blessings

Toni x

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